Exactly my feelings... 2024 has only started, but most of the days I feel as you wrote :(

But at the end, you have to take of your self. And let's face it - sometimes it is damn hard! But, we have to get over our ego and fear and find help. I know I struggled... The biggest fear was going to therapy. So I looked for options that have different approach. I am so happy that I found https://onlinetherapy.go2cloud.org/SHNf They are professionals, have different ways to help you and yes, pills free help! I encourage you to take this step, because I waited to long and I will need more time to be ok. I want to help as many people as I can. Please share my message. Love you...